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Crystal wants to know

February 28th 2008 06:50

Well, I think I'm really starting to sort myself out about my love life, I think it was easier before when I didn't have any love life. I'm fast beginning to think I am not the marrying kind and really children do sound like a lot of sacrifice and hard work.

Wow, aren't I negative to-day, I guess life is becoming a bit more compex than I realised, work seems so easy in comparison and Tinkerbelle really does as she' s told most of the time and the rest of the time I just lock her up in the cat run, which, of course, may be a good solution with children, apart from the 'naughty seat' but I doubt whether I'll find a man who would appreciate that as a solution and if I found it successful with him, he may well want to try the same thing with me.

That having been said it is now back to Andrew and me. Me, I can handle, Andrew I'm not too sure, just how long is he going to take to get his house, let alone his hobby farm sorted out and I don't think he'd manage at all without that funny old guy helping him out, but that arrangement seems very loose to me, but it seems to suit them both for the present anyway.

This weekend Andrew is taking me over to see his house, he's warned me that it is pretty messy and I'm wondering just what pretty messy means and how he still manages to look so well groomed at work.

I guess I'll just have to wait and see, do men always just plunge into things and hope it all works out?

So, this weekend, instead of the usually pleasurable one I have been used to experiencing is going to be rather challenging and it seems the 'talkfest' is imminent, if it's not going to work the sooner I move on the better.

But I do like Andrew very much and it could be said I have genuine feelings for him and naturally I find him attractive or I would not have bothered with him in the first place.

I suppose I'm sounding like a cruel bitch, but to me I'm just a practical one and let's not forget that I am no longer a teenager.

So now all I need to know is how long do you give a relationship before deciding if it is not going to work.

I think Andrew and I will remain an item but I am shocked by the implications of what he has taken on and what, in the long run, it may all mean.

So how long do you give a relationship before deciding whether it is working or not? Of course, if it's seriously deficient one should get out as soon as possible, but every relationship has it's ups and downs ( double entendre NOT intended) and must be given a reasonable period of time to develop. But, just how long should that be?

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Crystal wonders how you feel about renovations and managing a Hobby Farm.

February 26th 2008 06:38

Well, Andrew and I are getting on well, and I think I've earned about 10c from this blog, lately, so it's nice to think that when I give up work I'll have some of my own pocket money, although I'm wondering what I can buy for 10c.

Just kidding, I'll have some of my own money when I give up work.

It has surprised me as to how quickly I adapted to a new relationship. It hasn't been long but I really like Andrew.

We didn't spend a lot of time together over the weekend as Andrew wanted to go up to his beloved farm, I was not nearly so enthusiastic. He seems to be taking his time about getting himself organised, how different they can be when they are at work to when they are just socialising.

Mind you I liked the farm, I just didn't want to go up there too often. Men just seem to love to drive, don't they?

This weekend Andrew is going to take me over to his place. He has warned me that he bought his run down property with great expectations but found out he wasn't much of a renovator. I'm wondering just what to expect. He looks so immaculate at work it rather gives the impression that he would be like that in the rest of his life. Apparently he is not so.

He has a quiet sense of humour in comparison with Jim and not nearly such a flamboyant personality although he certainly knows how to woo a woman. He took me completely by surprise, really.

I'm wondering if any of you have done much renovating and if you have any interests in a farm, I really just don't know what to expect.

What I do know is that Andrew has a serious turn of mind and I really like that. He has his eye firmly set on the future but I can't help wondering if it's his future or ours.

So how do you feel about renovations and running a hobby farm, I'm just wondering because I hadn't thought about it much before.

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Crystal wonders what you fear about WORK.

February 24th 2008 01:55

Well, I've just done love and hate, I guess it's time for FEAR.

It's an awful word isn't it?

I hope that there is nothing that you fear about your home and I'm going to think about Fear and the workplace.

So what is it you fear about your work?

I don't fear being put off as I think it is most unlikely that that would happen and in the unlikely event it did I can afford to live anyway, but I think I would be able to find other work reasonably easily, having established myself as something of an expert in the field I'm in and one which does not have a political slant. It is purely technical and there are enough companies requiring my kind of expertise for me not to worry too much.

However, now that I have a better opinion of myself socially I am finding I am wanting to speak out more and more about the injustices women suffer at the hands of men. Many may think they are now equal but I see evidence every day that they are not and they are the ones who are suffering often not knowing just why.

Others, I feel sure, are acutely aware of it.

So, I guess my fears relate to wanting to have more of a voice and not complying with what a "boss" has to say about things, with me that person is 'faceache' and I've expressed my opinion about him before, having had a few small 'wins' but not too keen to push myself forward too much in case it backfires.

For the most part I am left to my own devices but there is still this resentment that gnaws away inside me.

What I REALLY fear is that one day I'll let my feelings be heard loud and clear and in a rather vitriolic way, to the point that my behaviour would be considered intolerably rude and if I weren't pushed out the door, I think humiliation would drive me out.

I don't think such an outburst as my reason for being dismissed or leaving hurriedly and unepectedly would sit well as a reference on my resume ( call it curriculum vitae, if you must). That for me would be very mortifying so I guess this is my fear in the workforce, I don't have any reason to fear any repercussions from my relationship with Andrew as has been inferred by others.

So what are your problems at work, or even in your self employed status if that description fits you more accurately.

Do you have serious issues, and do you have REAL FEARS.

Come on, be brave, tell us about them.

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