Crystal's feeling happy but she and Jim have some sorting out to do.
December 13th 2007 11:42
Happiness
I think this weekend will be a turning point in Jim's and my relationship, we are strongly attracted to each other but there has to be more to a relationship than that. I know what I want from life but I'm not sure that Jim does, he seems to pull away from any sort of commitment and seems to have just left girls when they started wanting something more permanent.
He has done well in his job which is very important and owns his own place and they are big starters, he has a way with women so will never want for female company but I want a man with an eye for the future so this weekend will be a big one when I get to see his place and we talk a bit more about his family.
I know my parents will want someone with a more conventional background although they will be sympathetic to Jim's circumstances and respect his accomplishments but they will be a bit worried, as I am, that he may have been emotionally scarred as a man which may affect his ability to cope with the normal family stressors.
So, this weekend will be a talking weekend, rather than a playing one. I am far from being ready to commit myself so one way or another nothing much will be lost.
Christmas is such an importand time for my family and I seem to have been almost asleep as to the realities of life for the last few years, and even before then when my life was all study and nothing much else.
I've decided I'm going back to ballet classes again next year, purely for the interest and exercise, not because I expect to become a ballerina although my mum would have thought that would have been lovely. She has to admit, that like dad, I have been something of an enigma to them, they thought I'd fit the mould a bit more, after all , all the others did? why me? I ask myself. It is quite amusing in its own way.
Tinkerbelle is in a very playful mood tonight so I don't think she is going to allow me to write much more, she's already been chasing the mouse around and I get the distinct impression she is ready to plonk herself on my keyboard.
Thursday is a strange day,just one more day to the weekend, and to-morrow I know I shall feel so much different. I'm quite happy in my job, it's just that sometimes I feel I'd rather not go to work, I think I'm getting a little clucky, it's a bit soon for that, considering I've only just recently acquired a new boyfriend and we do have some sorting out to do.
I've thrown away my social hangups and realise that I was not nearly as socially inept as I thought just a slow starter. I'm sure that blogging has brought me out of myself a lot, whoever would have believed I'd be doing this.
I don't know that I've demonstrated much in the way of feelings in this post, but there are feelings there, covered over by a pervading tiredness.
I know I should count my blessings, but most of us never do, isn't that true?
How differently we all feel about things, I'm sure that makes life even more complicated than it is already, but overall I feel happy, I'm getting on with life and that is what it's all about really. What do you think? or else, if you prefer it, feel?
Tinkerbelle "kitty"
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Comment by tlcorbin
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Big talks, often lead to big breakups simply because of a lack of history. History is the foundation you'll build on, so I for one will be watching with some interest to see how things work out.
I am leaning towards your good sense winning out;
..I'm not sure that Jim does, he seems to pull away from any sort of commitment and seems to have just left girls..
your remark is very telling. Raven
Comment by Michaelie
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Michaelie
Comment by Lara M
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Tinkerbelle is sucha cutey!
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cheers
Louie
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Comment by Krystal
feelings
I know what you think Michaelie, but how do you feel, whatever you think I always love to have you and your pretty face and beautiful mouth.
Lara, thankyou, nicely chosen words and Tinkerbelle is certainly a great stress reliever.
Louie, Jim’s certainly good to me, I guess sometimes starting late is not a bad thing but it wasn’t something I decided, it just happened that way.
Thanks Holly, you’re so honest.
You’re right katyzzz, they are.
Thank you one and all.
Crystal
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Ballet, Thats awesome!
Take care Tammy