What affects your feelings and how do you cope?
April 8th 2008 05:43
It is not always easy to think of something to blog about, some blogs seem to attract more attention than others, or should I say post.
I was lucky that I missed all that formatting and it seems some people are not happy with adsense but neither of those things worry me as I don't want to ever compete in any blog competitions and if they grade my blog as the worst blog ever I would just laugh and think that was very funny, but others take their blogging seriously, I know, although I can't think why for the life of me, such a few readers amongst millions world wide, it seems like the only one who is going to win this competition is Google.
For me the blog has served its purpose, I am now much better at socialising and I've had a number of boyfriends and that makes me very happy, I'm just beginning to realize that I may be married by this time next year and already that fills me with a certain alarm. It seems that we can spend far too much time being single which then makes it difficult to be part of a couple. I have the added problem of loving my own house and garden and my own space and that, once I am married, no matter where we live is going to have to be shared.
I would have liked to have a dog by now but uncertainty with respect to the future has held me back from acting on that desire, maybe I'd be better off getting a dog for the two of us when and if we finally get together. At the same time we can put our lives on hold for things which may never happen.
I can't say I am experiencing any of the "headiness" which some people feel in anticipation of marriage, maybe that's because I haven't yet decided. People all say I think too much but is that the truth or rather is it that they don't think enough.
But this is all to do with feelings and I don't think I'm feeling a lot right now. I do feel attracted to Andrew, when he holds me close my heart beats quicken and of course we all have sexual feelings.
But what else should or do we feel on a day to day basis.
I don't get annoyed with Andrew, I do get annoyed with my boss, but come the end of June I shall no longer be answerable to him but to the Board and that makes my heart sing.
I'm comfortable financially and this makes me feel secure.
When I'm with Andrew I feel cosy and warm, provided the weather doesn't suddenly turn cold as has happened a few times lately, and I don't like the cold weather and this makes me feel as if I want to get warm inside my own home with the heating on and some warm, cosy clothes.
When Tinkerbelle sits on my lap and purrs I just want to stroke her and keep her happy, when she is playful I join in the fun and this makes me laugh and we all feel good when we laugh.
When I've had a good day at work I'm always glad to get home and when I've had a bad day at work I'm even gladder to get home but always I still feel like a single and I'm wondering how I'll feel when I'm part of a couple. It must be different.
Maybe I should just let Andrew sweep me off my feet, he's more than willing but I feel hesitant, I don't feel ready for that.
Now I've told you about lots of things that affect my feelings and I'm wondering what things affect your feelings.
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I feel strongly about the environment and people ruining it, and spend my hours trying to help in any way I can. As for love, you have to feel it and live it, love it.. not think it..
Comment by The wonderful Peter Yang
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in ym brain there live two little people one is named feeling and the other one is named logic.
I lock the little guy name feeling in a cell with life sentence and let logic be the security guard.
I only listen to Logic and when ever Feeling try to tell me some thing, I get Logic to bash Feelings up.
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No one could doubt your environmental ethics but I'm sure you'll agree that you think it as well as feel it.
Great challenge coming up.
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If not, your partner will pick up on the withholding and will gradually withdraw themselves.
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Your writing style is comfortably casual Anon; I grew up lacking social skills and didn't interact well with strangers until I found a passion in my life, art. It gave me subject material and interesting knowledge that I used as a foil and source of inspiration when engaging others. Starting slowly, I gradually widened my circle of friends.
As a veteran, with medical issues and PTSD, I am reticent to open up for fear of being locked up. So, perhaps welcome to the human race is in order. You aren't that much of an odd duck and there is merit in what you share.
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