here we go
April 11th 2007 22:22
So once again I have been slack, I haven't had much to share with anyone, Im still on the same rollercoaster.
Yep havent got out of the Mia cycle yet, still purging here and there, still fasting here and there, not achieving much results due to the fact I don't stick with it from guilt I obtain.
I feel bad when I do it, I hate hurting those close to me.
But Im sure they would prefer emaculatre Viz than lard ass Viz.
I have a shoot in 2 weeks and I have to BE emaculate, perfect! 2 weeks to obtainm a svelt perfect figure, won't be too hard I have a lot of time to get down to business.
I still want Mia by my side, she's resurfaced as usual, only when I need her.
I am no where near happy with myself, not one little bit.
Im not sure what to do anymore, I don't know how to deal with my body.
I hate it.
And I feel Im beginning to hate myself as a whole, shit appearance shit everything.
Yep havent got out of the Mia cycle yet, still purging here and there, still fasting here and there, not achieving much results due to the fact I don't stick with it from guilt I obtain.
I feel bad when I do it, I hate hurting those close to me.
But Im sure they would prefer emaculatre Viz than lard ass Viz.
I have a shoot in 2 weeks and I have to BE emaculate, perfect! 2 weeks to obtainm a svelt perfect figure, won't be too hard I have a lot of time to get down to business.
I still want Mia by my side, she's resurfaced as usual, only when I need her.
I am no where near happy with myself, not one little bit.
Im not sure what to do anymore, I don't know how to deal with my body.
I hate it.
And I feel Im beginning to hate myself as a whole, shit appearance shit everything.
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