never ending, viz is back!
April 25th 2007 23:32
vizah
Never ending cycle is all this shit is..
One day I love Mia the next hour I hate her 15 minutes later I eat and then 2 seconds after Mia is by my side.
An hour of sickly pain follows where I hate her, but then it starts all over again.
1 minute of displeasure, a few seconds of deliriousness, and then the feeling it brings makes it all worth it.
There is no time to think, I don't like to think because then the WHAT IF voice comes into things and scatters my thoughts around.
I have a mission, and I will accomplish it.
These days I go by first thought and that is what I now act on that.
So that is the Mia update.
Sometimes I wonder what the Lord was thinking when he made me, he must have been rushing because he missed out the bit where at some point in my life this shit is supposed to end and I live happily ever after.
Its okay I am not actually naive enough to believe that will ever happen.
It is just one thing after another with me, at the moment certain relationships I have with a few people are very strained. I can't be fucked I would love to just fuck them off out of my life completely, but it will create a severely complicated situation at many events for not only myself but another closely loved person I have in my life.
shittest entry ever..
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