part of growing up
February 22nd 2007 13:46
I have many words running through my head, many sentences, but none that seem to sum up how I currently feel.
I am blank, but so mentally full of shit its driving me nuts, how to release, I have no clue!
Like when your having a bath, and you go to drain the water but for some reason the pipe is clogged.
I do however, have a matter pressing on my mind at this current point in time.
My mum is possibly deciding to move 3 hours east to where we used to once live.
How do I feel about this? Scared yet proud of her its about time she did what she has wanted to do!! And for her it is the best! Reasons to be her own and personal that I won't express in this blog.
It is going to be difficult I must admit to no longer live with my Mum she is my best friend, my soul mate! I do have the option to move back with her but I can't I could not live there again! For a holiday it is great but not to live permanantly!
I told her I have no issues about her going, I told her it's her life to do as she pleases, but ofcourse I don't want her to leave I would hate for her to leave. But I don't want to alter her feelings about going! Not just because she cooks mad meals and washes my clothes, but because she is like I said my best friend, she is always there to chat always there for hugs and kisses, always down for a laugh! And ofcourse always being a gorgeouse inspirational woman, and the best mother anyone could ask for!
Its going to be fucked, Ill be so lonely without my Mum.
No more waking up hearing 'morning darlin' no more random verbal play fights, no more hugs when I want them, no more 'mothers touch..warmth'' in the house!
But she will be bombarded with phone calls and letters emails and random visits!
Oh well I guess I am at that age of independance! Time to get out on my own two feet!
Im 19!!
Fuck I will miss her!
I am blank, but so mentally full of shit its driving me nuts, how to release, I have no clue!
Like when your having a bath, and you go to drain the water but for some reason the pipe is clogged.
I do however, have a matter pressing on my mind at this current point in time.
My mum is possibly deciding to move 3 hours east to where we used to once live.
How do I feel about this? Scared yet proud of her its about time she did what she has wanted to do!! And for her it is the best! Reasons to be her own and personal that I won't express in this blog.
I told her I have no issues about her going, I told her it's her life to do as she pleases, but ofcourse I don't want her to leave I would hate for her to leave. But I don't want to alter her feelings about going! Not just because she cooks mad meals and washes my clothes, but because she is like I said my best friend, she is always there to chat always there for hugs and kisses, always down for a laugh! And ofcourse always being a gorgeouse inspirational woman, and the best mother anyone could ask for!
Its going to be fucked, Ill be so lonely without my Mum.
No more waking up hearing 'morning darlin' no more random verbal play fights, no more hugs when I want them, no more 'mothers touch..warmth'' in the house!
But she will be bombarded with phone calls and letters emails and random visits!
Oh well I guess I am at that age of independance! Time to get out on my own two feet!
Fuck I will miss her!
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Comment by A mothers Love
No I do not want to move away from you either, and we can have it all nice and girly like girls should have their houses. No more having to put the seat down, no more having to wash the hair out of the hand basin, no more putting up with crap. (And the lollie jar will stay full a lot longer)
Life used to be the best, I think its time we took things right back to that place again. Who says you cannot revisit the past, probably some slacker that didnt have a clue just what a mothers love could achieve.
Mum