The angry side of viz
March 4th 2007 01:58
I am fucking fed up with everything!
Mostly my weight!
I binge, I regret it, I purge I feel better, I look in the mirror I want to purge again! I am disgusted!
I am not currently in Melbourne, and its driving me nuts! I want to be in my own environment, where I can visit Mia whenever the fuck I want! It is too hard to deal with my issues here!
Every little thing that wouldnt usually, is pissing me right off!
I cannot stand to feel this filth or feel as though I am wobbling as I stroll down tha streets anymore, I cannot stand to feel fucking repulsive I just want perfection! And I am not getting it because I am too weak to keep up this 'fast' but as of today as of right now, I am going to. And I will stick to it for a long time, until I succeed in some way to becoming thinner!
I am sick of fucking checking to see I don't look fat on every angle everytime I go past my reflection, Im sick of thinking about this 24 fucking 7 I am just sick of this Mia shit it consumes my whole life for now!
I can't even blog because I am so frustrated about other things going on, other things I won't shed light on at this point in time because my angst may come across the wrong way if certain people just so happen to read this!
So until then .. fuck it viz is an unhappy kid!
Mostly my weight!
I binge, I regret it, I purge I feel better, I look in the mirror I want to purge again! I am disgusted!
I am not currently in Melbourne, and its driving me nuts! I want to be in my own environment, where I can visit Mia whenever the fuck I want! It is too hard to deal with my issues here!
Every little thing that wouldnt usually, is pissing me right off!
I cannot stand to feel this filth or feel as though I am wobbling as I stroll down tha streets anymore, I cannot stand to feel fucking repulsive I just want perfection! And I am not getting it because I am too weak to keep up this 'fast' but as of today as of right now, I am going to. And I will stick to it for a long time, until I succeed in some way to becoming thinner!
I am sick of fucking checking to see I don't look fat on every angle everytime I go past my reflection, Im sick of thinking about this 24 fucking 7 I am just sick of this Mia shit it consumes my whole life for now!
I can't even blog because I am so frustrated about other things going on, other things I won't shed light on at this point in time because my angst may come across the wrong way if certain people just so happen to read this!
So until then .. fuck it viz is an unhappy kid!
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