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March 4th 2007 11:19
I have come to realise, that me and someone I loved dearly have drifted away, enough to no longer share the bond we once did.
And it really fucking shatters me. Someone who helped me through hard pasts and someone whos life I saved on 2 accounts! Someone I fucking cherished, someone I thought would be by my side never changing for the rest of my life. I can't describe how fucking alone I feel knowing this person is no longer 'that' person anymore!
Part of growing up? Who knows all I know is I am pretty burnt by it!
I still hold this person close to my heart, but the distance our souls now share is irreversible, the bond is broken, and we are now the 'hey how are ya' type you usually eventually end up trying to avoid on the street. I thought this person was my ''friend version of a soul mate'', it fucking kills. Ive known this person forever and all of the sudden shit just is off tap!
It is an unspoken understanding, we both know its over, and it wont be the same again and we will just have to accept it! It doesn't make shit any easier though!
I can't write about it fuck!
This trip away has just filled me with fucking disapointment!
To a degree Im not happy back at home, and I am not happy here where tha other half of my family and 'true' friends live.
Even those who are closest to me, I will not name names, have distanced themselves! ''Blood is thicker than water yes'', but if their was no blood there would be no association!
I will leave it at that!
There are only a handful out of what feels like a fuckin thousand people who I fuckin love adore and cherish and hold close to my heart. The others who are not in the hand, are a shadow of aquaintances who only make themselves known when in need of something.
Time to take out the trash I cannot be fucked!
If it wasn't for that handful of people I don't think I could really cope with shit, I never really let people delve that deep, because I don't want to be an emotional fuck while they are around. Who can be fucked! But Im sorry for puttin them through this Mia business! I wish no-one knew! And I am sorry for all the times I repeat myself, all the times I go on about Mia, all the times I am just generally having a fat day, all the times I even so much as mention my weight! I am just plain sorry! It's not how shit should be, friends shouldnt have to fucking deal with heavy shit like this, so I am taking this up on my own!
Thankyou for being supportive and not critical nore judgmental and just accepting me still as I am!
Love you guys more than anything!
ERRRR SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHH VIZ!
And it really fucking shatters me. Someone who helped me through hard pasts and someone whos life I saved on 2 accounts! Someone I fucking cherished, someone I thought would be by my side never changing for the rest of my life. I can't describe how fucking alone I feel knowing this person is no longer 'that' person anymore!
Part of growing up? Who knows all I know is I am pretty burnt by it!
I still hold this person close to my heart, but the distance our souls now share is irreversible, the bond is broken, and we are now the 'hey how are ya' type you usually eventually end up trying to avoid on the street. I thought this person was my ''friend version of a soul mate'', it fucking kills. Ive known this person forever and all of the sudden shit just is off tap!
I can't write about it fuck!
This trip away has just filled me with fucking disapointment!
To a degree Im not happy back at home, and I am not happy here where tha other half of my family and 'true' friends live.
Even those who are closest to me, I will not name names, have distanced themselves! ''Blood is thicker than water yes'', but if their was no blood there would be no association!
I will leave it at that!
There are only a handful out of what feels like a fuckin thousand people who I fuckin love adore and cherish and hold close to my heart. The others who are not in the hand, are a shadow of aquaintances who only make themselves known when in need of something.
If it wasn't for that handful of people I don't think I could really cope with shit, I never really let people delve that deep, because I don't want to be an emotional fuck while they are around. Who can be fucked! But Im sorry for puttin them through this Mia business! I wish no-one knew! And I am sorry for all the times I repeat myself, all the times I go on about Mia, all the times I am just generally having a fat day, all the times I even so much as mention my weight! I am just plain sorry! It's not how shit should be, friends shouldnt have to fucking deal with heavy shit like this, so I am taking this up on my own!
Thankyou for being supportive and not critical nore judgmental and just accepting me still as I am!
Love you guys more than anything!
ERRRR SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHH VIZ!
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