when!!
February 12th 2007 13:26
When does the feeling of emptiness within subside? I pinch myself constantly to know Im real, and not a dream. But Im drifting further and further into what seems a cool empty place.
I hate this.
My mum doesnt like to hug me now cos she feels Im to thin, without hugs I cant get by.
Im not too thin I am nowhere near, you'd pass me on the street and wouldn't even think 'EATING DISORDER'!
I was browsing youtube.com today and thought I would type in bulimia to see what come up.
What did I see? A compilation of videos from different girls all over the globe competting for who REALLY had an eating disorder who REALLY battled the illness who REALLY was suffering!
But what I saw was a group of very uneducated individuals who knew very little facts. Who seemed to think the illness was something glamourous and somewhat fashionable to spin shit about. A way to gain attention from others! It made me feel sick. These girls dont know what they are talking about it is clear to see in their videos, it makes me sad to think they believe it is cool to brag and compete about. Because its not glamourous its not cool its not the new must have illness. Its just not!
The amount of videos I saw posted in the same month were all about how they had battled it severely and what they supposedly went through and how other girls on youtube didnt really have it cos they are 'fat now, or dont have sunken cheeks'! They all bag eachother out and just compete, its like its the new fashion accessory. Its just not cool and it upsets me greatly! I probably seem somewhat harsh towards them as some may have had an eating disorder or currently do, but the way they have gone about and worded their videos just shows how full of shit they are! There is one user on that site I have come across who has touched me, soley! And she is on the ball about her illness!
Her videos have hit a nerve with me and actually made me snap out of shit to an extent! I can relate so much to what she says, I find her an inspiration not a THINSPIRATION. And mad props to her for having the guts to make those videos! Mad props to her for kicking this shit in the ass like she has!
I hate this.
My mum doesnt like to hug me now cos she feels Im to thin, without hugs I cant get by.
Im not too thin I am nowhere near, you'd pass me on the street and wouldn't even think 'EATING DISORDER'!
I was browsing youtube.com today and thought I would type in bulimia to see what come up.
What did I see? A compilation of videos from different girls all over the globe competting for who REALLY had an eating disorder who REALLY battled the illness who REALLY was suffering!
The amount of videos I saw posted in the same month were all about how they had battled it severely and what they supposedly went through and how other girls on youtube didnt really have it cos they are 'fat now, or dont have sunken cheeks'! They all bag eachother out and just compete, its like its the new fashion accessory. Its just not cool and it upsets me greatly! I probably seem somewhat harsh towards them as some may have had an eating disorder or currently do, but the way they have gone about and worded their videos just shows how full of shit they are! There is one user on that site I have come across who has touched me, soley! And she is on the ball about her illness!
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